i was expecting someone to be blogging about the spec course on the blog,

but apparently expecting for something to happen is useless,

i must start doing something myself first :D


*****

i think spec course had left a pretty great impact on my life.


(don't know why,
but ever since i joined ncc,
i think i matured quite a lot.

cos i became emotionally stronger throughout these years with all those endurance.
i also saw all the changes in everyone.

one by one everybody changed.

if you ask me to name the character of this particular pltmate, i don't think it'd be too hard. i'm a rather good observer.)


spec course seriously brought me to one of my lowest point,
like a never ending pit.

day by day i just kept dropping and dropping.


first day

admin work, lectures, gsk test.

got into alpha 1 with kendrick and alan.
and became the ic for the day.

i went into the course with confidence.
cos confidence is the key to success :D

so i don't think i screw up really badly as an ic, which was something i'm glad for.

lectures in the auditorium were damn inspirational.
i especially love the air clt's talk.
i took down so many pointers from him which i swear i'll try out.
soon :D

gsk test was rather alright i guess.
they resused some questions hahahah.


second day and third day

tests and tests,
sitting and more sitting.

super boring.

my butt cramped a few times :/

my tests weren't badly done i supposed.
except that loading of magazine and judging distances one.

zzz

but these 2 days were also the days where my discipline dropped like crap.

first day i was totally like following the semi-moon's footsteps.

subsequently, my mindset was changed.
affected by many factors, like the freaky power struggle.

some very sweet/nice people aka semimoon girls can look like a demoness when they do whatever they can to make themselves stand out and get noticed.
but they don't know that that only disgusts people like me, observers like me.

that only applies for some.
my platoon ones were damn nice.
they weren't like that thank god.

otherwise due to the stress, i might have became a scary demoness too D:


another factor was something which you all shouldn't know.
i sworn to heaven that i would reveal nothing about that.

:X


forth day

POP day.
i was called out for the damn interview again.

this interview taught me not to lie.

cos lying is the factor that wouldn't get you any award.

not that i deserved it.

my standard weren't that good seriously.
probably only my tests results were good.


and i got all emotional after that damn interview.

all the way until now.

banana lah zzz.

hopefully the chiangmai trip would help me forget all these woes.

:D

don't worry people, i'll get something for you all!
i won't come home emptyhanded hahaha.




joycelin