Delta'09: GANFEEIWEN

Alrights.
few days have pass since specs course.
i'm kinda clear-headed now and shall now do some reflection about specs course 08.

Basically, for me. people think that i prepared a lot for specs course. Considering i brought my specs course notes to chalet and attempt to study amidst all the hoolahoola, unsuccessfully. DUH.

i was kinda freaking out the day before specs course because all the days before specs course i went back to school for this &that, and yeah. never really study. so the last day was kinda a cramming session for me. Yeah, even though i felt anxious at that point of time, i don't know. I still manage to go out and hoolahoola with my family and watch the TV at night. only got my wakeup call when shuyun called and ask whether im ready to go. Yeah, its only than. i wake up and start mugging again. LOL, can't let them be disappointed in us when they put in so much effort yeah?

First day

woke up kinda early. thought i had time so i lagged, turns out im one of the last few to reach YCK. so sorry darlings ! Made our way to HQ, pretty long. Took bus to sispec and this v funny sir is entertaining us along e way.

ALRIGHT, first day was pretty slack. just lectures and lectures and lectures. Lectures are inspiring, seriously. But my eyes were tearing &tearing after lunch and i tahan all the way until before GSK test. all the guys think im crying. zzz. GREAT. so i had to go all e way back to our bunks and search through all the bunks that my platoon mates could be sleeping in to find contact lens solution ._. NOOBSHIT. ohwells, at least i get to talk with SIRridwan &his such a nice guy :D

Though i slacked lots the first day cause of various sick reasons, i guess it's a blessing in disguise if you know what i mean :D

Second day

saw the semimoon so hiong. So, i decided to be hiong too. Kinda regret this decision though, kinda make me look like im powerhungry. Owells. Yeah, but when i see someone hiong &i slack, i'll feel weird &empty. So i need to at least do something like timing or being the IC to confirm with myself that "look, im working hard for specs course." yeah..

Basically, trainfire didn't really go smoothly for me but must thank the sirs whose been really patient with me. LOL, i was IC at this point of time &when i was doing my trainfire BADLY, i can hear the sirs this one IC, no good right.

my heart totally drop..

whatever, IFC was managable :D

Third Day

mutuals day !

like what zhaiyang say, we'll kinda develop 6packs on our butt that day o.o I was attempting to sit straight like semimoon so my back hurts a lot, but i tahan la.

Kinda confident in my mutuals even though i never practice it even once. I prepared them the day before specs course duh ._. My heart was beating really fast for the first mutual though. Saw kendrick and joycelin did their mutual with so much confidence i didn't wanna lose out too. Trainfire mutual was alright than :D they listen understand joke &ask questions :D guess i was funny enough.

I was even more confident in the second mutual because before our IFC test sir ask me to explain to my platoon on Judging distances and i did it very well that all was impressed with me. The sir even ask whether i was trying to teach him ._. zzz.. but of cause when it comes to the actual mutual, i was the last to present and everybody don't care already. So i just blah my way through.

This is the day when they choose whether you're a 2sg or 3sg, so i really hiong alot for that day.

Last day

pretty much nothing. Just the interviews &all other hoolahoola.

my heart pop out when the mdm say, "oh ganfeeiwen is a female right, ganfeeiwen fall out" after checking our bags. WOO. i thought they never chose me as one of the best cadet nominees D: show a lot of standard when falling in with all the other best cadet nominees. BASICALLY EVERYBODY ARE JUST LIKE STATUES and my legs are aching and my fingers are NUMB. Mdm was commenting on my uniform ._. &i kept asking for adjustment time so that i can jumpjumphophop about. IRONICALLY, the HCI guys show so much standard that when its adjustment time, they still stand still. Yeah, this is call pro alrights ! Admire them so much o.o

Oh, in my plt. One crescent girl, one rvhs girl &one hci boy went for interview. LOL. i guess you'll know what happen. So learn from mistakes, do not give bad comments &of cause don't cry in the interview.

LOL, shan't tell why i cry. But when i came out of the interview later, i realise me and darling juicelin cried over the same issue. I guess.

So yeah, rvhs girls.

im so proud of you guys.

we clinched 4 awards.

keep striving hard.

&most importantly, rank doesn't matter.

the only way we can earn respect is be leaders by example.