hi bravo.

sometimes, we just need to reflect.
at first wanted to stay back after activity today to talk.
but...

NVM.


okay.
yes, today's act. was hiong.

it's hiong because it has been a SUPER long time since we last did physical training.
D:

how long?
i don't really remember.

but i feel that we must definitely do something about it.

why can't we just give them our best performance and satisfy the specialists for once?
WHYWHYWHY??!

what's wrong with us, seriously?

do we blame our legs?
(why can't it serdia properly?!)

do we blame our hands/arms?
(why is it not locked? no matter how much i lock, it still moves when sergeant moves it)
(why is it not 90-45?)

do we blame our eyes?
(why can't we have eyeball discipline? why is it that we look on the ground?)

DO WE BLAME OURSELVES?
yes.
i do.

it's actually quite dissapointing.
i am in ncc for so long.
yet i can't coordinate with my platoon mates.
or give solid bangs.
or do many many pumpings.
or stay in pumping position for very long.
or run without feeling super tired.
or lead a proper cheer when we are running.
or pass during imt classification.


why is it like that?
am i not putting enough effort?
AM I?

i don't know.

but no offence, i can see that some of us are not putting our utmost efforts.

yes, ncc can get boring, tiring, sian, waste of time, useless sometimes.
i mean, who can tell me frankly that you have never dreaded ncc at least once in these 2 years?
i do too.

but ncc has it's fun times too.

through ncc i met the 13 of you.
we are going to know each other for 6 years.
that's quite strong friendship don't you think?

(okay, i am out of point.)

ncc is all about discipline.
so yeah, don't complain.
we must do whatever the specs tell us to.
no choice, die die must do.

even if you dislike ncc, please TRY to like.
it's not that hard to like someone/something right?
if you put in effort, and we can give a better standard, then we'll have a better life in ncc don't you think?


then the specs will be happy.
we'll be happy.
everybody will be happy.


OKAY. END OF SPEECH.


joycelin :/ i feel lousy.